So yeah, relationships go through all sorts of changes as many of us are accustomed to knowing that. One of the things in particular is break-ups. It happens, sometimes over and over again to the same people in our life. Well I realized it was becoming an on going reality with me, that for some reason, I wore that magical sign I didnt see that said "Hey You, yeah over there, if you are fat, ugly, dumb, have no money, wanna try to live off of me, & never better yourself, take out all your anger problems on others, & just generally use me, well you've come to the right place, apply here, apparently I'm a sucker for that." You know what I'm getting at, all the jerks out there. It's pretty pathetic when you are in conversation with friends and you mention my ex, and they all say "which one sweetie, because you have a few.." that I began to realize a trend.

Well I made a commitment to myself just about 2 years ago, the next lasting relationship I entered would be the last, no matter how it turned out. I met a very great man. Kind hearted, determined individual, he has great morals, I could go on. For various reasons after a lengthy time together he had to end the relationship just recently. Although I am extremely heart broken & I do love him very much, I understand why. He will be gone for a while. I have to respect his decision I guess. I told him I would be willing to accept him back when he returns because in my eyes there is no one else, & I have no apparent need to date again. Everyone feels that I am being crazy for not wanting to date again, and wanting to 'wait' to see if he will want to take a chance with me when he returns. But in my heart I feel that he is the only one for me, the only man that I want around.

I dont want to get back out into the dating thing just to set myself up for another failure. I mean have you ever heard any of the lame pick up lines that the men try to use on us women?? I'll give you the worst I have heard, and guys actually think they are going to get somewhere with sophisticated intelligent women such as ourselves!! Too funny!! So yes, mean while I may feel like I am all tied up in knots, but that is okay, even if there may be an ounce of hope later, even if not, I am choosing not to let myself get hurt again. I am only devoting my heart to one man.

Now for the lines I have heard, feel free to leave any that you may have heard too that are just as bad! 1) You are a fine piece of meat! 2) Youre hair is as soft as cotton. 3) Umm hey you wanna go home with me and fuck?? I'll pay for the taxi home. 4) Damn girl you sure know how to move, you wanna try out any on me? (sure how about my foot in your crotch)

These among the typical jerks out there is why I refuse to date again! Stupidity men!!! Learn how to treat a lady and respect her, you might have a better chance!